Colt, love. You are 3 months old today! Happy happy!
Colt developments: Baby love, you are developing so perfectly into such a wonderful little man.
Although you started smiling last month, you have smiled so much more this month. One of my favorite developments is that when I come to your crib to get you for your first morning feeding, you stop making noise and you smile up at me so big! It makes me feel like you really know me and are happy to see me, which obviously melts my heart and brings me so much joy. You smile all through the day but especially when you’re on the changing table and I’m singing to you (you totally think I am a super cool pop-star). We have learned that the little dimple in your chin functions like a smile button and nothing makes you smile like your daddy does. You two just adore each other.
A few weeks ago you rolled over for the first time! You were on your tummy and rolled over to your back. I was the only one to see it but I called for your dad to come in and you immediately did it again for both of us! Since then you’ve done it sporadically a few times.
This month you really started batting at and grabbing onto objects above/in front of you. You have discovered your hands and while you’re not really sucking your thumb yet (although you do it every now and then), you are putting your hands in your mouth and playing with them more. You are kicking like crazy on your changing table, in the bath tub and during play-time these days, and your legs feel much stronger when we stand you up. You are holding your head up much better and really enjoy sitting in your bumbo seat. You’re also doing these funny things with your mouth and tongue – like you’re discovering the world by tasting the air. It’s hilarious and adorable. You are also “talking” a lot these days – making the sweetest coos and sounds.
Health: You are a healthy, growing little man! Your pediatrician is traveling so our appointment isn’t until next week, however I think you’re a little over 14 lbs – more than double your birth weight! You moved up to Size 2 diapers and are so sweet and chubby – rolls and rolls galore! And your skin is just milky, creamy perfection. It is so soft, snuggly and kissable all over. I seriously cannot get enough.
Eating: Still 100% Mama’s milk. You’re generally a great eater – spending about 6 minutes on each side, although we had a tough week this month where the feedings were pretty rough. It was like, 2 minutes in you would come off and start screaming like I was harming you versus giving you precious nourishment from my own body! You would always need to burp where you would produce these amazing spit-ups, and then we would go through it again a few times. That happened regularly for about a week and now you’ll have a feed like that once every 2 or 3 days, but nothing major. Normally you’re wonderful and it’s fun, sweet time for us. You are getting bigger so you kind of wrap around me more and have started holding on to me, taking occasional breaks to smile, all of which I love.
I thought my body was regulating my milk supply a little bit more but lately I seem to still be way overproducing. I try really hard not to pump after or in between feedings because I know it makes it worse, but sometimes I just can’t help it – especially in the mornings because although you eat great then, I’ll have been making milk all night long, and you just can’t eat enough. Even after a good morning feed I’ll still pump an average of 8 oz and a few times this month, I’ve overflowed the bottles while pumping. At any rate, it’s a problem that I’m thankful to have, as it means that I am able to provide you with all that you need.
Sleeping: At night you sleep 6-8 hours, all swaddled and in your crib. During the day you usually have a long nap after your first morning feed and another long one in the late afternoon, but then much smaller cat-naps between other feedings.
At night I usually don’t get to sleep until 30 minutes – an hour after you go down, so I’m typically getting 5-7 hours of sleep at night. Sometimes I can make it on 6 or 7, but if possible I like to join in on that first morning nap. It makes me feel so much better the rest of the day, but it’s also tricky because it makes my day start much later and then I have a difficult time getting myself showered and getting much “accomplished” since you basically only have one other long nap during the day.
Schedule: We usually start the day at 6:30 or 7am. You eat, get changed, and then we play for another hour or so. This is some of your sweetest, smiliest time and even if I’m exhausted, I absolutely love it. We always sing the “This is the day the Lord has made” song during this time. After you’ve been awake for an hour and a half, you get sleepy so I wrap you back up and lay you down for your big morning nap, where you usually sleep for another 2-3 hours. Then you wake up again to eat at 10:30 or 11am, after which point we are basically on a 3 hour feeding cycle schedule for the rest of the day. You get a bath every day – usually in the afternoon – and then your last feed is generally around 10:30pm. You have a bed-time song, and I love when your dad and I can sing it and put you to bed together, although I regularly end up laughing so much I’m in tears. Between your sleepy, confused little face and your dad’s singing…I can’t handle it. You typically fall asleep by 11:45pm, and then we do it all over again!
Each individual cycle starts with a feeding and then a diaper change (because your favorite place to fill up that diaper is in my arms while you’re feeding — amazing), then we have various play-time activities including tummy time, reading, singing and dancing to music, playing on the activity mat, sitting in your bouncy seat or bumbo seat, taking baths, going for walks in the park (or the grocery store), and generally just playing with Mom and Dad. I also try to have Portuguese TV on in the background for a couple hours each day. You usually play for a while and then go through a “transition” where you are still up, but you’re getting tired and like to have your paci for a while before taking a nap.
A normal day for us would be feeding at: 6:30am (long nap), 11:00am (bath), 2:00pm (little outing), 5:00pm, 8:00pm (no nap), 10:30pm, asleep by 11:45pm.
Mama: This month I told my boss that I would not be returning to work as I had previously planned. There were a lot of things that factored into this decision, but the ultimately I just couldn’t imagine leaving you with someone else all day. I recognize that many people don’t have the luxury of this choice (nor is this the right choice for everyone!), but since I do have the option to be the one taking care of you all day, I desperately want to do it. You are my precious angel and I love every second with you. Even when you’re just napping I feel like I’m missing you!
That being said, it is an adjustment to stop working outside the home. It’s an odd dynamic – being so “busy” with you that I can’t get many other things accomplished. At the end of the day I’m not sure whether to feel like I did a ton or like I didn’t do anything!
I have faith that I will return to the workplace again in the future, but for now I’m not going to try to predict when that will happen or what it will look like. Right now I am just thankful that I have you, sweet boy, and that I get to hold you, love you, feed you, play with you and care for you all day, every day.
Overall I continue to love being a mom, being your mom, more and more each day. I was never a baby-person before you came along sweetie, so I wasn’t really sure how I would do, but I actually think I’m doing pretty well! I have been so thankful for the confidence that God has given me in being your mom. Although I certainly don’t always know the absolute best thing to do for you at every moment, I feel confident in the decisions that your dad and I are making for you and for our family. I think I expected to doubt myself a lot more than I do, or have more freak-out calls to my mom, but so far God has guided us well. Anyway, I am totally over that whole “mom-guilt” thing — I know that we’re doing our best and you’re doing just great, so I’m happy and thankful.
Thoughts: Baby love, I cannot get enough of you. I know I have said this before, but you just bring so much joy into this family – we are so happy to have you Culhane. You make us laugh all the time with your sweet noises and funny faces and I have decided that my favorite feature of yours is your mouth! It’s just so cute when you’re sleeping, smiling, even when you’re crying.
My sweet love, you are so amazing and get more and more adorable each day. I stare at you and just want to get absorbed up into you and your preciousness. I know that doesn’t even make sense, but there aren’t words for how I feel when I look at you.
But as amazing as these past 3 months have been, I was surprised to realize that I actually don’t want to rewind and do them all over. Each day brings new fun and happiness, so while I am constantly wanting to freeze time and live in a single moment forever, later I never find myself wanting to go back to that moment because you have given us new, greater joy since then. It really does just keep getting better. Praise be to God.
3 thoughts on “Culhane’s 3rd Month!”
Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful. Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Happy Birthday, Culhane!!
Oh he’s so beautiful Ashley! Sounds like y’all are all doing great! Love reading these sweet monthly updates. It’s seems like just yesterday I was writing about Eliza’s 3 month update. The time really does fly by! Glad you get to stay home with him, what a blessing!
Papa and I always love reading all the blogs at least one, or two times. You tell so much what is happening that I don’t even feel like we have missed meeting him. That will also be a very special day for us when we do get to meet him. He has the sweetest smile, and it is wonderful he shares it with you often. This will be a very special Christmas for all of our family who have not met Culhane yet. I am so glad you have decided that you want to be with Culhane full time. I am sure this will be special for the three of you. Love, Nanny